You know what I want? I want a book. Yes, even papers binded together will do.

But I want one which can make me lost in its world, or touch my mind and make me cry. I want one which can comfort me about life, one which can overcome my hate of cornyness, cliches and stereotypes.

I want it to make me feel a natural high about life again. Artificial highs are naive and stupid. Why can't people just see that and stop wasting themselves?

I want it to make me stop confusing myself about the people around me. It could reassure my insecurities that I hide because I don't want people to think I'm weak. But here I am, publishing it to the whole entirety of the WWW.

There. Do you get me? no? Good then, because my purpose isn't to let you understand me. I just felt this way,that's all.
Thanks for reading if you even did. Because I feel way better putting it out here..tata..

haha shit my last post was erased cos i 4got 2 save it.
I told myself, do not panic, just sit down and slowy try to recall all the juicy details you typed and hopefully not just bang the keyboard and stomp off.

Here goes argh...

Spent the day doing absolutely nothing in particular ann wow,
spell H-E-A-V-E-N.

I've finally finished my book "the new girl" by Emily Perkins.
Relatively Boring and anticlimatic. In fact, describing it as anticlimatic would be an insult to the word itself cos there is no rising action at all.
It's bout 3 best galfrens waitin for college results. And meanwhile they attend a summer 'self-awareness' course. The teacher is from the city, far far away to them.
The guys in their town are jerks, the town is dull. 2 of them go astray, gettin wasted (sex and drugs, the usual), cos they end up failing. While one of em heads of to the city University, becomes a loner because she doesn't belive in clubs or booze. The whole storyline is depressing.It gives you hope, then pushes yo back down the drain.


Spore Idol tonite, was predictable, surprising, yawn-worthy and enjoyable. wow, I'm contradicting myself all at once.
As expected, 70%of the guys gave yawn(boyband) renditions or the kind of chinese(Project Superstar) feel.

Thankfully there were a few who actually made me take of my earplugs and listen..

Paul a.k.a now-you-see-me-now-you-don't. You know, ze guy with the mophead hair and eyeliner.

Think he might appeal to mass, cos of the image n all.

Nice voice, but it's his image/personality (read:hair) that really stands out more.

Now and THEN

Clear-cut voice but *yawn* personality


Then along came
MR

Loved the voice, the performance that saved the show.
Potential hearthrob? Potential Idol?
Watch this space.Haha.

oh god, there's an encore of SI theatre auditions tonite? argh.and i thought the noise by the aircon maintainence ppl was bad. They're repeating the Idol episodes that we clearly don't want to ever watch again? Why can't they rerun the episodes that actually are enjoyable?? Like the auditions. I'd rather watch that over and over again, than watching the theatre auditions TWICE. for all those 'lucky souls' who managed catch the theatre auditions, I am sure you all had a hard time trying to digest the 'catfights' and dramatisations. There was one part where these 2 girls in diff groups but were in the same chalet room BOTH wanted to practice in the room, but one of them just wanted the whole dam room 2 herself. so after dat, dey were meowing away at the cameras. Almost like americas next top models, minus the beauty.
Then contestants were freaking out minutes before the solo performances. In conclusion, it was preety much a sob-fest, or catfight season.

yay im back from piano. got my shellings from teacher because my sight reading was pathetic and half the time when answering the aural questions my answers were mainly er..ah...ohh..er.., yes i was that stumped. Anyway my punishment was to help her to post her stupid bill at the mrt station ACROSS P.S. and fyi, it is horrifiyingly sunny 2day.

but It's over now.but now, at home, it is annoyingly noisy.No, it's not Lev, (but he's sleeping like a pig now on the sofa) it's those stupid guys from air-con mantainence, fixing the leaks and whats not. *saw saw drill drill knock knock* My poor ears are withering. They've been here before i woke. Ok, fine, they were working hard. dam hard. But don't forget i went to buy chicken rice downstairs for them huh, during lunch. while i starved without complaints at home..sigh..
nah actually i wasnt starving, just that i only finished bfast, so i wasn hungry so mum made me go buy chicken rice for the uncles la.

Haha i know i said i wasnt going ta dwell bout my life here. But i can't help it okay. so from now onwards, I shall take that mindless statement back and I will continue to yak yak yak bout my life. yes, it is sad. but the truth hurts.

I have committed a sin to my religion today. By the way, my religion is books mags and anything else that can be read upside down, inverted, rotten or torn.

And it is absolutely addictive mind you.

K back to my crime, yknow on my way back from p.s, i was at city hall, so naturally the first place i went was the basement at the marketplace.

Oh ya, dichu know that the basement is absolutely fab now, it's been renovated and the shops there now are irresistable. All are so mod. Now I always find an excuse to pass thru the renovated parts first just so I can walk through there.It feels very VIP but w/o the red carpet treatment.

Back to my long winded crime, anyway, I just went to my usual hangout, the mag stand, searching for any new isusses of de mags but dam, evrything was seen there read that. And the only mag, which i hadn lay hands on was teenage.Argghh..yes i know, the eighty percent coverage of chinese stars, the boring columns and the pathetic fash finds. It was a pure sin in my bible. But thankfully amidst of all the bland contents, at least there was some substance in the world cup section. So for the record, this is the first time I've spent only a mere 15minutes at the stand. I'm amazed. sigh.

There's this place read bout in LIME called Pitstop Cafe.

their toothpick holder and stikfas.. you can't really see the place cos i didn get a gd pic at their webbie.'

Looks really promising, it's a small lil eatery tucked in a road called circular road. uh i nv heard of it.. It's actually somewhere at spore river or south bridge road. Really cool place, run by a pinch of polytechnic students.the main concept of this cafe is that u get a buncha frens to eat here, while u get free flows of board games hosted by the crew there. And no the board games are not your monopoly, scrabble *yawn* games. They are straight off the shelves of Wal Mart, California. It sounds rad to me, might sound absolutely lame to you, but I like it and thats all that matters,so there, :p. THEIR GAME LISTS They've got board games straight off the shelves of Wal Mart, California. So no more boring scrabble monopoly and all those tried and tired games that inspired the name bored games. Hope to rope in some peeps to check out that place soon. I've linked their webbie, so give the orange letters a clickie to check it out.

man, gots piano today. dad called maintenance today to repair the air-con vents.dunno wad da hecks wrong wit it anyway. so gotta go p.s myself.. but it's only startin at 3 so i gots all da time in the world fo now.......................

hello world.
I'm apologetic if I bored u off your smelly socks for my past few posts like i swore i wouldn. Apology accepted? ah, I knew you would be understanding. If not I wouldn b wasting my time writin all that to u, I'd b better off watching that show on tv with fake expolosions and cheering people.

As usual, today is monday, N lil brudder is sick today. yes, poor lil brat. I almost feel sorry for him. Please don get me wrong, I care for my brother okay?
Just that, like what I told Lev, it's sometimes good to be sick, cos of all the special treatment you get from mom.Wah, feels like heaven. But the poor brat slept throughout the the day, so he didnt get to enjoy the fine-since-you're-sick previliges we usually get. For example, he'd be able to watch his cartoons the whole day without having to wrestle his lovely sister or suffer the preachings of dear mom. But since he slept throughout the day, I was the one who benefited. One day of peace and serenity. I guess serenity might be over by tmr though..aw.

I daydream a lot and then sometimes i start thinking bout issues that are clearly none of mah beeswax but i just can't help having a little debate in my mind.

I've been online since early morn n it's been pouring like there's no tomorrow. N so far I've only gotten 2 finding a decent skin for here.


I decided that the one that I formerly decided on was messy

, and I want a cleaner one. WITH BIGGER FONTS.
all the skins seem to only concentrate on the pics n designs and neglecting the whole point of a blog. The fonts for the blog entry are always nanoscopic. If i can't find a decent one soon, i'll just havta resort to the amateur skins on blogger which at least have legible FONTS.

I'm goin skin-shopping! Let's see what I narrowed down on.

Other EDEN


Vague Memories





Droozy? haha.



so far the biggest words come from the first one, but i rather the colour be plain. the fonts for the second one come across as horrible, dunno why i chose it in the first place.
U know what? This whole thing is juz so pointless i think im gonna stop preening bout it n juz freakin put a skin.

came back kinda late today.was stuck at BORDERS for real long.
anyways, you won't wanna know my schedule for the day was.
It'd probably bore you off your socks.
E usual crap, jap, ballet n runnin all roun e place.

N i nearly died today cos i thought my nano died when i couldn switch it on.I went 2 apple centre at wheelock n e lady just held e button for a whole minute den it recovered. If only illnesses could be cured in humans by gettin e doc to hug us for a whole dam min,
only if your doc is cute, that is.

neways enough bout my life. There're reasons why i'm restrainin bout talkin bout it, afta readin so many people tellin their 'life stories', half the time I don't know and rather not bother what's goin on. At times I even got depressed readin em..

---30min hiatus---(bloody bro was staging his drama beside me so that he could play his games, i let him before head exploded)

..but it gets so addictive N evryday i'll go back to decode all e hidden messages in all e bunch of sentences.
And also I don't like publishin my deepest secrets n personal moments for the entire humanity to read.
but of course, if it's really worth a mention, I'll be typin away.

i visited that wendy gal's blog awhile ago, nv been there bfo so i went ta check it out. N despite all the **** and**** and***** being peppered generously all over, it does have some substance init, really.
Besides, it made me laugh. I don't mean all of it, there are some touchy subs, but I don't choose to make a whole brouhaha about it. I have enough problems.

I read the comments and some people were seriously like worshipping and kissin her shoes. They're like,
" Omg! you're so lucky, you've got such a good life, good looks..evrythin..blahblahblah.."
That's seriously pathetic.
She said in her blog "I'm just a normal girl who got lucky". And can't those people take a hint? She a blogger just like evryone else who has more talent in talkin than the rest. Those people who post those kinda comments r just desperados who don't have a effin life.
I betta stop bfo i sound like I'm jealous. Lol i'm not.
Just gettin carried away like I always do.

man i feel so stupid.succumbing 2 de temptation of pointless blog crap again. Nevertheless, i will still continue to post all my ramblings and complaints of my crazy life, until i get sick, lazy and tired of it.

aNYways, evryones doin a blog n i was readin em n it just had dat kind of effect on me.that temptation, yknow? yes i noe, i am foolish.well who cares? Some of de blogs i read were really pointless n they'll just go blahblarbla bout wad happened dat day n sometimes u juz don get a clue about what theyre tryna say.like they're lost in their own weird world. something like me.haha.jkin.ok im sorry i know i'm boring you with all my useless words. if i am, feel free 2 click on that X button on e screen.i won mind.lol.
so neways sigh, these days has been so dam borin. n annoyin, wit all that homework pilin in. I can't wait ta run away 2 perth.yeah, 2 more weeks n i'll be on a plane wit a kangaroo init. Argh, dam 4got i gotta stay bak tmr ta do some banner for mrs ching's. N oh yeah, e musical, still gotta come bak durin e hols. great.
Tomorrow we're gonna meet e balestier principal.for our sub combos next yr.ms susie ho. her name sounds pretty friendly, i wonda if she really is.hah.

ange din come 2day, shez down wit sore thoat, fevar n flu.i tink.shez not comin tmr.aw man, nobody ta get retarded wit gain.sigh, ohwell. get well soon ange :))..hopefully tmr i'll be talkin bout sth more interestin dan my life.see yas.